It's nice to have a blog like this. I really cant post anything private on Facebook because I've got friends from work there. Very few people know that I have a tabulas blog, and I have learned to trust these people throughout the years. So I could write pretty much anything I wanted to say here, whether it's nonsensical or emotional.
These past few days I felt like I was pressuring Takumi to look for a job. I guess that's because I'm stressed out at work again. (Erratic training schedules, 20+ calls per day, calculating repayment plans etc.) I know I'm being unfair to him, but I can't stop myself. And I think I hurt him a bit when we talked about it a few minutes ago. I felt so guilty afterwards.
Should I say sorry? Should I take back what I've said about him looking for a job and forget about it? Or am I doing the right thing, but I'm just not phrasing it properly?